Journal: 5
12. 13. 2012
Stephanie M.B.
Any girl in America... How do you show attachment? Where along the lines have you made the wrong turn? I, like my mother wear my heart on my sleeve, leaving myself rather vunlerable to just about everything. I met someone about seven years ago, I was too young to know exactly what I was feeling, but as I got older I realized how much I loved him. So him and I were something special for quite a while. Every twist and turn, every hic-up, and dirt smudged line within my loud quarky personality; he loved and I with him. Then I made That "Wrong Turn" and we continued to drift apart.
Granted what we went our seperate ways, what we had was something I want back. It was something I cherished, something that was able to steel my mind away from everything and everyone else and create this happier person. I loved myself a little bit more back then. I know its stupid and pointless; you shouldn't need someone to love you to love yourself, but I guess everything seemed different back then... I was different. Though I do want to find this feeling, I have come to find that, I NEED to STOP looking for it. That while I'm looking for it, I'll find bits and pieces of my happiness, but I'll never find it all. I just need to keep walking, and hopfully stumble across my happiness.
So for any girl in America... How do you show attachment? Where along the lines have you made the wrong turn? The answer to either of these questions really isnt important; its what you do afterwards. How you pick your self back up, who you meet, and the places you go... Just dont plan it... Dont look for it. It's much more fun if it finds you.
12. 13. 2012
12. 13. 2012
Stephanie M.B.
Any girl in America... How do you show attachment? Where along the lines have you made the wrong turn? I, like my mother wear my heart on my sleeve, leaving myself rather vunlerable to just about everything. I met someone about seven years ago, I was too young to know exactly what I was feeling, but as I got older I realized how much I loved him. So him and I were something special for quite a while. Every twist and turn, every hic-up, and dirt smudged line within my loud quarky personality; he loved and I with him. Then I made That "Wrong Turn" and we continued to drift apart.
Granted what we went our seperate ways, what we had was something I want back. It was something I cherished, something that was able to steel my mind away from everything and everyone else and create this happier person. I loved myself a little bit more back then. I know its stupid and pointless; you shouldn't need someone to love you to love yourself, but I guess everything seemed different back then... I was different. Though I do want to find this feeling, I have come to find that, I NEED to STOP looking for it. That while I'm looking for it, I'll find bits and pieces of my happiness, but I'll never find it all. I just need to keep walking, and hopfully stumble across my happiness.
So for any girl in America... How do you show attachment? Where along the lines have you made the wrong turn? The answer to either of these questions really isnt important; its what you do afterwards. How you pick your self back up, who you meet, and the places you go... Just dont plan it... Dont look for it. It's much more fun if it finds you.
12. 13. 2012
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