I want to dedicate this to my mother. A woman I believe to be strong and weak, brave yet cowardly, kind but cold. And though at times she Leaves me dumb and without words I love her whole heartedly.
Mom, May You Never Change. May Life Continue To Better Your Strength, As It Tests You With These Hurdles That May Seem Almost... Just Almost Imposible.
I Love You Mom.
Never Weak Always Stand Tall
By: Stephanie M. B.
I want to help you
Save you
Protect you
I've always been this way
This emotionless rock,
Tough and unstoppable
So when your body killing disease
Struck you
I kept moving, kept punching
I made my skin your durable tissue
My shirt your daily shield
Never weak, Always stand tall
You taught me that
So when your mind killing disease
Took you by the throat and you feel to your knees
When this emotion killing thrill ride disease tripped you
And you didn't get up...
This killing disease had you pinned
Had you weak
Had you hopeless
It had you mad, sad, and carless
Never weak, always stand tall
You taught me that
I never gave up on you
Even when you wanted me to
I never left you
Even when you asked me to
I never stayed down
Even when you put me there
This killing disease has forever
Changed you
I loved you to a maxi-must point
I cared for you with all of my being
So when you reaped those words upon my flesh
“You selfish Bitch”
This rock, your rock
This emotionless, tough standing soldier
Crumbled
I broke
I wondered why
Why did you say that
Why did you cut me down to nothing but ruble?
This killing disease has changed you
All I wanted was to help you
Save you
Protect you.
This killing disease has turned you bitter
This disease which chewed you
Like bubble gum
And turned your bones weak and brittle
This disease which took you by the throat
And brought you to your knees
Is killing me
Its breaking me
Its poking me in places I never knew were sensitive
Your Cancer is twisting my arm
Wringing my heart
And churning my blood
I hate what this cancer has done to you
I hate that you don’t see the same beautiful woman I see
I hate that you cant be my rock like I was for you.
I hate
I hate
I hate
Two words I never thought I could ever mean
Your cancer maybe gone
Your cancer may have been chased from your blood
But in my mirror I see what I know
You see too
I see a scar
A scar too deep, to begin to fix
Your cancer may have left
But it took the one thing I’ve
Always needed
The one thing I’ve always wanted
My mom
And the sad part is
Though you stand in front of me today
And God knows I thank him for
That every day
I will never have my entire mom
All of my strong, loving, caring
And even funny mom
I want to help you
Save you
Protect you
But even with my late night sobs,
And my tears in attempt to comfort
Myself,
I cant
I want to help you
I need your help
I want to save you
Even when I need you to save me
I will always protect you
I’ve always been this way
I always will
I’ll keep moving, keep punching
Never weak, Always stand strong
You taught me that
Now your Learning that
I love you mom
I will help you
I will save you
I will protect you
But I will always need you.
Save you
Protect you
I've always been this way
This emotionless rock,
Tough and unstoppable
So when your body killing disease
Struck you
I kept moving, kept punching
I made my skin your durable tissue
My shirt your daily shield
Never weak, Always stand tall
You taught me that
So when your mind killing disease
Took you by the throat and you feel to your knees
When this emotion killing thrill ride disease tripped you
And you didn't get up...
This killing disease had you pinned
Had you weak
Had you hopeless
It had you mad, sad, and carless
Never weak, always stand tall
You taught me that
I never gave up on you
Even when you wanted me to
I never left you
Even when you asked me to
I never stayed down
Even when you put me there
This killing disease has forever
Changed you
I loved you to a maxi-must point
I cared for you with all of my being
So when you reaped those words upon my flesh
“You selfish Bitch”
This rock, your rock
This emotionless, tough standing soldier
Crumbled
I broke
I wondered why
Why did you say that
Why did you cut me down to nothing but ruble?
This killing disease has changed you
All I wanted was to help you
Save you
Protect you.
This killing disease has turned you bitter
This disease which chewed you
Like bubble gum
And turned your bones weak and brittle
This disease which took you by the throat
And brought you to your knees
Is killing me
Its breaking me
Its poking me in places I never knew were sensitive
Your Cancer is twisting my arm
Wringing my heart
And churning my blood
I hate what this cancer has done to you
I hate that you don’t see the same beautiful woman I see
I hate that you cant be my rock like I was for you.
I hate
I hate
I hate
Two words I never thought I could ever mean
Your cancer maybe gone
Your cancer may have been chased from your blood
But in my mirror I see what I know
You see too
I see a scar
A scar too deep, to begin to fix
Your cancer may have left
But it took the one thing I’ve
Always needed
The one thing I’ve always wanted
My mom
And the sad part is
Though you stand in front of me today
And God knows I thank him for
That every day
I will never have my entire mom
All of my strong, loving, caring
And even funny mom
I want to help you
Save you
Protect you
But even with my late night sobs,
And my tears in attempt to comfort
Myself,
I cant
I want to help you
I need your help
I want to save you
Even when I need you to save me
I will always protect you
I’ve always been this way
I always will
I’ll keep moving, keep punching
Never weak, Always stand strong
You taught me that
Now your Learning that
I love you mom
I will help you
I will save you
I will protect you
But I will always need you.
Thank you Mom
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