Here's Another One For The Books

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S.MarleneB.

Let the rain fall

The thunder rumble,

And the lightning flash, 

The crackle above your sweetened  head

Afraid to know as people roll by;

Dont walk, Dont move.

Allow my mind to crash

Go boom

Then maybe you'll see

How silly your being.

Dont push away 

Though it's easy to do

You know you'll be back

Should have listen to me

Let the thunder clap

And the lightning spark

I know your scared

 Just let me in

Let me grab hold

Though I maybe never let go

Poem: What Happened?

What Happened

A ghost spinning in place
Others watching
Unsure of what they've witnessed
A ghost running
Shoulder to shoulder
Pulling on hands ,
Grabbing for faces

Others watching never moving
Still as stone,
Grey as ash,
What happened

A ghost screaming in place
Lost and confused,
Touching stone
and bleeding air
What happened

Others watched
But never thought;
Tight rope walking,
She'd fall
Rather yet...
She'd jump

A ghost
Touching stone
And bleeding air
What happened?

Written By: Stephanie M.B.

Self Inflicted

Sometimes people blame others for their misfortune, but then there are many who look at them selves and know what they've done. It's hard to pull your self up and recognize these imperfections but when you do the really hard part comes to play... Rebuilding. Sometimes you need that extra hand, that shoulder to lean on, or someone to push you. In any case breathe easy and start slow; if the people that are helping you PULL BACK you simply just keep MOVING FORWARD!

Self Inflicted
By: Stephanie M.B.

Empty spaces become what I am
Changing my skin and cutting it down
Bruises rise over simple family ties
Breaking moments of lasting sanity
Darkness falls over as time goes on
Leaving nothing but rubble
And pieces of their gun
Lying in wait as I build up four walls
Shutting them out leaving no one but me
Reached out for her but she didn't reply
Shutting me in leave nothing to pry.
So I sit in my corner, finding comfort in death
So no one will listen, should I even be scared??
I closed my doors, painted over my windows
I dug my hole, now I have to climb out

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"Forgotten People"

There have been many times when I have thought about people whom lives had been what society conciders "insignificant." But how is it that these "Insignificant People" are place within this group to begin with? Is it  because they did nothing "note" worthy? or Because the did nothing "note" worthy for the publics eye? Could it be these people lived a life a privacy, with family buisness behind closed doors?? If so, couldn't society place our majority within

"The Insignificants?"

 

Forgotten People

By: Stephanie M.B.

 

Quiet faces whisper through my faded life
These foggy days, and lost moments,
All of which are falling through my broken fingers
Chasing days of forgotten love
With times of sun kissed coffins.

When deaths of choice are living loud
And times of sorrows come in pairs,
This comatose skeleton plays it's role
Crawling through his daily parade,
Crying for what mercy God has.

The laughter of a noble man,
The chilling of his daughter's heart,
And their twisting spines for stair cases
Forgotten faces falling through a broken family.

The chasings of ghostly pasts
And tattered sheets blowing the often swallowed winds.
A child's tear heard by a forgotten mother,
And a brother's mercy felt by a shattered father.
Regrets remembered by those lonesome parents
And time falls,
And time falls,
Falling time sitting in the laps of forgotten fate.

But Remember me, a forgotten child,
As mercy topples to it's knees,
"Forgive me, Forgive me, Forgive me please."
For those lost, chastised, and brittle souls;
Try to love, and remember them
Remember me, I will remember you



"A Families Self Destruction"

Sometimes we say our family is a little crazy, maybe even unorthadox. Well evern though I love my family, their flaws, these wounds they tend to tear them selves; over come what qualities they may have that over come those nasty layers of hatred and bitterness.

 

A Families Self Destruction

By: Stephanie M.B.

I haven't the words
The words to say how I feel
I'm mad, but I'm sad
I'm wrong, but your right
I've told you this
But to you words are words
Only meaning anything
When good for you to show,
Your heart beats one beat
I haven't the words to tell you how this make me feel
I prove, and I prove
Though proof may never be enough
Though I give and I give
Then slashed when I take

So I'm confused
Where am I now
Where do you hold your first born
Am I the one on the highest of pedestals
Or the one so easily forgotten when faces turn the other cheek

But I haven't forgotten dear dad
How love is but two cold shoulders,
And two of his favorite words, "F**k you."
Seeing more of his back, then I do of his face
I was your first born
But you dropped me like painful weights
It has become so easy for you
To cover the sky with one hand

My family is but a broken mirror
And too busy to pick up the pieces.
Everyone walking in circles,
And falling in holes that they've dug for themselves.
The youngest yet of my family
Young Roman
My heart, how bleeds for him
He falls into a hole his mother has dug
And under the watchful eye,
Of his denial sunk grandmother.

I have a backwards family
With carless parents and reckless kids
They weep in their pity, stuck in depression
Setting up their down fall, and pulling those around them
So quick to their demise
Putting themselves in their caskets
Is this the wall we've hit?
Our self destruction. 

A Little Dedication For My Mom; Never Weak Always Stand Tall

I want to dedicate this to my mother. A woman I believe to be strong and weak, brave yet cowardly, kind but cold. And though at times she Leaves me dumb and without words I love her whole heartedly.

Mom, May You Never Change. May Life Continue To Better Your Strength, As It Tests You With These Hurdles That May Seem Almost... Just Almost Imposible.

I Love You Mom.

Never Weak Always Stand Tall

By: Stephanie M. B.

I want to help you
Save you
Protect you
I've always been this way
This emotionless rock,
Tough and unstoppable
So when your body killing disease
Struck you
I kept moving, kept punching
I made my skin your durable tissue
My shirt your daily shield
Never weak, Always stand tall
You taught me that
So when your mind killing disease
Took you by the throat and you feel to your knees
When this emotion killing thrill ride disease tripped you
And you didn't get up...
This killing disease had you pinned
Had you weak
Had you hopeless
It had you mad, sad, and carless


Never weak, always stand tall
You taught me that
I never gave up on you
Even when you wanted me to
I never left you
Even when you asked me to
I never stayed down
Even when you put me there
This killing disease has forever
Changed you
I loved you to a maxi-must point
I cared for you with all of my being
So when you reaped those words upon my flesh
“You selfish Bitch”
This rock, your rock
This emotionless, tough standing soldier
Crumbled
I broke
I wondered why
Why did you say that
Why did you cut me down to nothing but ruble?
This killing disease has changed you
All I wanted was to help you
Save you
Protect you.
This killing disease has turned you bitter
This disease which chewed you
Like bubble gum
And turned your bones weak and brittle
This disease which took you by the throat
And brought you to your knees
Is killing me
Its breaking me
Its poking me in places I never knew were sensitive
Your Cancer is twisting my arm
Wringing my heart
And churning my blood


I hate what this cancer has done to you
I hate that you don’t see the same beautiful woman I see
I hate that you cant be my rock like I was for you.
I hate
I hate
I hate
Two words I never thought I could ever mean


Your cancer maybe gone
Your cancer may have been chased from your blood
But in my mirror I see what I know
You see too
I see a scar
A scar too deep, to begin to fix
Your cancer may have left
But it took the one thing I’ve
Always needed
The one thing I’ve always wanted
My mom
And the sad part is
Though you stand in front of me today
And God knows I thank him for
That every day
I will never have my entire mom
All of my strong, loving, caring
And even funny mom


I want to help you
Save you
Protect you
But even with my late night sobs,
And my tears in attempt to comfort
Myself,
I cant
I want to help you
I need your help
I want to save you
Even when I need you to save me
I will always protect you
I’ve always been this way
I always will
I’ll keep moving, keep punching
Never weak, Always stand strong
You taught me that
Now your Learning that


I love you mom
I will help you
I will save you
I will protect you
But I will always need you.

Thank you Mom